Is it awful and bad that I still dream of getting in my car and just driving with no clue where I'm going just to break the monotony of this life I've created?

I guess its not so horrible since I know I would never have the balls to do it....plus as much as I think I want to, I could never hurt the people in my life in that way. I have a lil 21st century family now and they depend on me just as much as I depend on them.

It sucks to grow up.